Battlefield

Every day is a battlefield. Whatever we fight for: our fears, the demons in our heads, our insecurities, the unwillingness to forgive or move on, our unrequited feelings, it’s always a battle against ourselves.
 
Sometimes, we lose our way. Other times, we let ourselves lose. So, we better choose our battles, if we can because it’s not every day that we win every battle that we fight for.
 
We should learn to concede and accept the fact that in life, we’ll face battles not meant for us to win, but instead, for us to learn something from.
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Battlefield

Soulmate

Have you found your soulmate yet?

Some say, a soulmate is someone who’s destined to be with you. That no matter how long, or how far or how impossible it is, you will find your way together in the end.

Well, there are also others who say that a soulmate is the person whom you can be your best self with; the one who mirrors your personality; your “coincidental half” and the one who’s mostly like you in all aspects.

No matter how you define a soulmate, one thing’s for sure, finding your soulmate is like finding your one true love. It’s magical, even life-changing. But it could be just a temporary thing. It may also be short-lived because that kind of love is a love that does not need to be together, but merely, a love that has to be felt, even once in your life.

Soulmate

About Love

Why do you love the person you love? Is it because of that captivating look and peculiar personality? Or maybe because of the way you are taken care of? Is it because of that feeling of finally not being alone? Or maybe because when you’re together, complicated things become less complicated?

No matter what reason, it will all sum up to one thing: You love the person you love because you have chosen it. You are feeling that kind of love because you chose to feel it. And though you have a million choices, you particularly chose that person: his whole being, body and soul.

It’s amazing how all of us love someone, even unrequitedly. But sometimes, it’s even more fulfilling to realize that though your love don’t get reciprocated, you are still willing to choose that person, over and over again–amidst the pain, in between broken hearts. Because unconsciously, we all crave not for being loved but for the chance to have loved someone at all.

About Love

Where Forever Lies: A Story of Death and Moving On

          “Death ends a life, not a relationship.”   -Mitch Albom, Tuesdays With Morrie

People are often afraid of death. They could not imagine being departed from their loved ones or being a lifetime away. So when someone dies, people find it hard to move on. Some even become depressed to the point of ending their own lives just to get away from the extreme sadness they feel due to the loss of someone dear to them.

I happened to be one of them..once. To tell you my story, let me start by asking you a question, “Do you believe in forever?”

Being an only child, I undeniably grew up with all of my parents’ love and care. They did everything that they can in order to provide me with the best future. Anything that I want, they had gladly and willingly given me so I reciprocally did my part of being a good child. I almost had a perfect life—almost. And then one day, fate had its dreadful twist on us. Summer of 2000, my mother died of heart attack. By then, I was only 10 years old. Am I too young to be on a heartbreaking situation like that? Should I be thankful that I was able to experience being my mother’s daughter even for just 10 precious years? What will happen to me now? These are just few of the questions that kept running on my mind back then. Actually, when that happened, my life was filled with questions that I don’t even know how to answer. I also became numb. The numbness in my heart and soul has caused something that until now, I regret that I had: depression. Yes, for quite a while, I became depressed because I lost my mother, my best friend, my first teacher. It was really hard for me to move on. I hated all kinds of happiness. I stopped communicating with people. I even ceased going to the church because whenever I see a family attending the mass, I felt incomplete. My heart feels like it’s being stabbed.

Fortunately, my depression didn’t last long. Reality struck me big time and so I easily accepted moving on. I began to view my life in a brighter perspective simply because I didn’t let depression get the best of me. The years had passed and I continued to live my life now, with only me and my dad. I still had my dad though and that is enough reason for me to continue living and move forward. However, things did not go well with my dad. I didn’t know that while it’s hard for me to accept that my mom’s already gone, it was even harder for my dad. He loved her too much that when she left us, it seemed that my dad’s world has fallen right in front of him. Sadly, while I managed to recover from being down, my father was deeply devastated and I was not able to help him get through it. On the years that followed my mother’s death my life and my father’s life was like a roller coaster ride. With the myriad ups and downs, I was almost on the verge of giving up but I had to be strong and endure everything, at least for my father. I wanted to take care of him, I wanted to make him feel that he’s not alone because he still had me, I wanted to show him my love but all of them are just short-lived. Six years after my mother went to heaven, my father followed—just as I was starting to go to college. When you’re 16 and you’re an orphan, what would you do? Sure, I am old enough to move on but am I strong enough to understand that I no longer have a family? Well, I had to. Since the day that I became an orphan, I firmly stood for myself. Who would do that for me, anyway? Right? Though life had been not-so-good for me, it was not-so-bad for me either. After all that I’ve been through, I am still thankful that I’m still alive. Imagine, if I easily gave in to the call of grief and melancholy, I probably won’t be here now and maybe I took my own life.

Now, if you’ll ask me, “Do I believe in forever?” Yes, I do. But forever doesn’t end when someone we love dies. Forever is eternal. Though they are not physically present in our lives, their memories are still worth remembering. When you remember someone who had passed away, it’s okay to be sad because losing a loved one is really not that easy but on a lighter side, we should bear in mind that they are now happy to be back in the arms of our Creator. But we can never blame Him if our life got miserable because we cannot pick up ourselves from depression due to the loss of someone. Not moving on is definitely a choice. We can always move on from something or someone that has caused us too much hurt or pain but sometimes, we cannot move on simply because we don’t want to. Death only ends one’s life but we should move forward. Though they are a lifetime away, it doesn’t change the fact that they were once part of our lives.

Forever is eternal. If someone dear to us become out of our grasp, still, forever, they will remain in our hearts. Whoever they were in our lives, our relationship with them will stay the same and our love for them will never fade. Wherever life takes us, their memories will always be there. In our hearts, that is where forever lies.

Where Forever Lies: A Story of Death and Moving On

The Line

There’s just something that connects us

Mutual admiration, shared passions, thinking alike

We are both happy when we’re together

Some good things I’ll always remember

 

But there’s a line in between

When the both of us meet

Where there’s just “me” and “you”

And everything else, I don’t know


The line, I could not cross nor pass

Will remain that way officially

Because we’re unofficially together

And there’ll be no “us” until forever


The Line

Truthful Lie

Many times, we get confused on what to do with our life. We bombard ourselves with questions, sometimes, even the silly ones, that we do not know how to answer (or if they really have an answer). Maybe, that is what living life is all about. We wonder constantly what the future will bring us but we also get stuck with the past’s “could-have-been” and “I-should-have-done-that”.

 

We also tend to complicate things, or even our relationships. It’s like, though we are perfectly happy with something, all of a sudden, we think of lacking something essential, something that cannot be explained. And so, we lose our contentment. We forget how happy we are because we’re busy finding the loopholes on everything.

 

Undeniably, living life could be that hard especially when we easily give in to temptations, to lies that come out as truths or to thoughts that are just thoughts, with no meaning at all. Life is a truthful lie we all have to live with but without it, we are just a thought, waiting to pop out and come into existence.

Truthful Lie