There are times when I wake up looking for answers for all of my questions: “Why am I not yet there? What’s taking me too long? Where on Earth can I find what I am looking for? Who am I really?”
But then after a few moments, I realize that not all of my questions have an answer, that I should just let some things be and at the end of the day, what’s more important is that I exist.
Though we don’t understand some things in life, why they happen and what they are for, we just have to accept the fact that they happen, whether we like it or not. And since we cannot do anything about it, all we are left to do is just to accept it.
Life is bigger than all of us. Sometimes, it swallows us whole and puts us into the abyss of giving up. Nonetheless, if we won’t try to struggle, how would we know if life truly exists and that its fruits are sweeter with every hardship?
Though life gives us a hundred reason to give up, we should think of a million reason to hold on because life is all about staying strong when everything else goes wrong.
There is really no perfect job because all of it has flaws. You may not see it now but as you go on, you will realize how imperfect your job is (so as the other jobs you haven’t landed yet). That’s the whole point of working. Every job does not guarantee everything you want for a job. Yes, it could give you some benefits, fulfill your needs and make you happy for quite some time. Yet, if you lose interest or if you find another one which you think is better, you’ll begin to look for its every flaw, its every disadvantage. And then the rest of every days will just be like battling every monster of idleness and discontent. In the end, you cannot or will not give your 100% for your work only because of the 10% of feeling every imperfection you thought it has.
There is no perfect job but you can make it perfect by accepting and embracing its imperfections as if it’s meant to be flawed for you to figure it all out and give whatever you can, by any means you can.
And I say, this also applies to love and being in a relationship.
I did say it’s over but it’s you I always think of. When I’m alone, I remember everything we shared–stories, laughter, passions. I know I could live without you, and you could live without me too but at the back of my mind, I don’t really want to. I can but I just don’t want to and it’s driving me crazy to think that you feel the same way. Well, maybe you do, but hearing the words, “I want us to be over ” or “I hope you find someone better” coming right from my mouth, I cannot imagine how hurt you might be. And with that pain, you might just go, live your life without me rather than stay with me and take part in my complicated life.
I’ve always wanted everything that’s complicated because in intricacies, I find challenge. I get driven to be someone I’m not or do something that I’m not used to just because I feel the hype of being in a complicated state but still I manage to get through. But what we have is far more complicated. I don’t know how things started but once we got in, it seems like we can never get out. No matter how many times I try to breathe another air, yours always comes to existence. I could not picture myself with another person because your image is what I always see..everywhere. On times that I thought of finding someone new, I tend to look for “you” in them.
I guess moving on from you is not for me because after all these things that I had to say, I know it’s you I still want. I do, I honestly do but I could not compete with the fact that though I want you that bad, we are already over and there is no chance that we are getting back together. I’m just gonna let things be because love is not just about feeling it and having it in reciprocal. Sometimes, love is more about sacrifice and doing the right thing.
We may get along really well,
Be really close like no one can tell,
Share our stories and laugh together,
Make our lives something to remember
But sooner, we may part our ways
“Us” will be sometimes, instead of always
Each day together may become cold
Two people in a different world
But there’s one thing that I’ll remember about you,
The thing that I couldn’t forget from you
It’s that one thing that I first knew
It’s your name that made me into you
Life sometimes gives us challenges we can’t seem to pass. We become bound to a future that’s certainly uncertain and it pushes us to be the best version of ourselves only to be disappointed in the end.
I guess that’s just the magic of life.
It is challenging, uncertain and full of ironies but once we get over these unpleasant circumstances, all our worries, frustrations and disappointments will disappear. Like magic, it will be as if it never existed. Like magic, we’ll accept it as it is and we’ll just enjoy the show. It’s what we paid for anyway.
Life is really interesting, magical but definitely entertaining.
Generally speaking, you will only see the goodness of life if you’ll open your mind to all possibilities. If you have been wronged once, it doesn’t mean that you will have to face mishaps for the rest of your life. There’s what we call change: the only thing that’s permanent in this world. To cope with the ever-changing world, all we need to do is move along with it, move forward and don’t let the past intervene your present and your future.