I’ve always wanted everything that’s complicated because in intricacies, I find challenge. I get driven to be someone I’m not or do something that I’m not used to just because I feel the hype of being in a complicated state but still I can manage to get through. I don’t want to do the simple and plain because I easily get bored. Given the chance, I would choose something that’s unusual, always.
My life may be filled with everything that’s complicated right now but deep in my heart, I know that these complications make me stronger, wiser and a lot better than who and what I am before. Whatever happens, I know I’ll survive, even on the toughest times.
This is me accepting my weakness, which happened to be at the same time, my strength.
There are times when I wake up looking for answers for all of my questions: “Why am I not yet there? What’s taking me too long? Where on Earth can I find what I am looking for? Who am I really?”
But then after a few moments, I realize that not all of my questions have an answer, that I should just let some things be and at the end of the day, what’s more important is that I exist.
Though we don’t understand some things in life, why they happen and what they are for, we just have to accept the fact that they happen, whether we like it or not. And since we cannot do anything about it, all we are left to do is just to accept it.
I’ve been trying real hard to say the right things to say; to figure out what I really feel and accept things as they should be. But then, at the back of my mind, I realized that some things are better kept unsaid or feelings just kept hidden. It’s not being untrue to yourself, rather, it’s just to “uncomplicate” things that are already complicated. It’s also not overthinking but a mere facing of reality that sometimes, in order for a thing to go well, we just have to leave them be.
Well, I guess I’m not that unemotional after all.
I don’t know what’s the big deal with being different.
I mean, we are all different, right?
What you want may not be what I want.
Who you are is exactly not who I am.
Where you go, I cannot or simply will not go.
How you do things is different from how I get them done.
If you really want to be accepted, you do not need to be someone who conforms to what others want for you.
All you have to do is to just be yourself– the version of a person with no pretense, with pure heart and a big dose of peculiarity.
If people cannot accept your personality, at least have some respect for yourself by doing what you wanted to do and becoming what you wanted to become.
Dare to be different.