Have you found your soulmate yet?
Some say, a soulmate is someone who’s destined to be with you. That no matter how long, or how far or how impossible it is, you will find your way together in the end.
Well, there are also others who say that a soulmate is the person whom you can be your best self with; the one who mirrors your personality; your “coincidental half” and the one who’s mostly like you in all aspects.
No matter how you define a soulmate, one thing’s for sure, finding your soulmate is like finding your one true love. It’s magical, even life-changing. But it could be just a temporary thing. It may also be short-lived because that kind of love is a love that does not need to be together, but merely, a love that has to be felt, even once in your life.
Why do you love the person you love? Is it because of that captivating look and peculiar personality? Or maybe because of the way you are taken care of? Is it because of that feeling of finally not being alone? Or maybe because when you’re together, complicated things become less complicated?
No matter what reason, it will all sum up to one thing: You love the person you love because you have chosen it. You are feeling that kind of love because you chose to feel it. And though you have a million choices, you particularly chose that person: his whole being, body and soul.
It’s amazing how all of us love someone, even unrequitedly. But sometimes, it’s even more fulfilling to realize that though your love don’t get reciprocated, you are still willing to choose that person, over and over again–amidst the pain, in between broken hearts. Because unconsciously, we all crave not for being loved but for the chance to have loved someone at all.
Losing a loved one does not mean that you also have to lose yourself in the process of moving on with that tragic moment. At first, of course, you have all the right to be sad and weep for your loss but it’s definitely pathetic if you can hardly live your life without them.
A thing lost can never be regained especially if it’s in the will of the Lord. So, when you are currently experiencing such trial, don’t ever ask God why of all people, you were the one whom He had taken a loved one. Instead, be thankful that although you lost a person so dear to you, He is always ready to give you His helping hand whenever you call.
When your life gets a little messy because of problems, don’t say, “God, I have a big problem,” rather, say, “Problem, I have a big God.” And if you do, you’ll make an exceptionally tough person out of you–tough enough to withstand any obstacles and pound any impediments.
There are times when I wake up looking for answers for all of my questions: “Why am I not yet there? What’s taking me too long? Where on Earth can I find what I am looking for? Who am I really?”
But then after a few moments, I realize that not all of my questions have an answer, that I should just let some things be and at the end of the day, what’s more important is that I exist.
Though we don’t understand some things in life, why they happen and what they are for, we just have to accept the fact that they happen, whether we like it or not. And since we cannot do anything about it, all we are left to do is just to accept it.
There is really no perfect job because all of it has flaws. You may not see it now but as you go on, you will realize how imperfect your job is (so as the other jobs you haven’t landed yet). That’s the whole point of working. Every job does not guarantee everything you want for a job. Yes, it could give you some benefits, fulfill your needs and make you happy for quite some time. Yet, if you lose interest or if you find another one which you think is better, you’ll begin to look for its every flaw, its every disadvantage. And then the rest of every days will just be like battling every monster of idleness and discontent. In the end, you cannot or will not give your 100% for your work only because of the 10% of feeling every imperfection you thought it has.
There is no perfect job but you can make it perfect by accepting and embracing its imperfections as if it’s meant to be flawed for you to figure it all out and give whatever you can, by any means you can.
And I say, this also applies to love and being in a relationship.
I did say it’s over but it’s you I always think of. When I’m alone, I remember everything we shared–stories, laughter, passions. I know I could live without you, and you could live without me too but at the back of my mind, I don’t really want to. I can but I just don’t want to and it’s driving me crazy to think that you feel the same way. Well, maybe you do, but hearing the words, “I want us to be over ” or “I hope you find someone better” coming right from my mouth, I cannot imagine how hurt you might be. And with that pain, you might just go, live your life without me rather than stay with me and take part in my complicated life.
I’ve always wanted everything that’s complicated because in intricacies, I find challenge. I get driven to be someone I’m not or do something that I’m not used to just because I feel the hype of being in a complicated state but still I manage to get through. But what we have is far more complicated. I don’t know how things started but once we got in, it seems like we can never get out. No matter how many times I try to breathe another air, yours always comes to existence. I could not picture myself with another person because your image is what I always see..everywhere. On times that I thought of finding someone new, I tend to look for “you” in them.
I guess moving on from you is not for me because after all these things that I had to say, I know it’s you I still want. I do, I honestly do but I could not compete with the fact that though I want you that bad, we are already over and there is no chance that we are getting back together. I’m just gonna let things be because love is not just about feeling it and having it in reciprocal. Sometimes, love is more about sacrifice and doing the right thing.
Life sometimes gives us challenges we can’t seem to pass. We become bound to a future that’s certainly uncertain and it pushes us to be the best version of ourselves only to be disappointed in the end.
I guess that’s just the magic of life.
It is challenging, uncertain and full of ironies but once we get over these unpleasant circumstances, all our worries, frustrations and disappointments will disappear. Like magic, it will be as if it never existed. Like magic, we’ll accept it as it is and we’ll just enjoy the show. It’s what we paid for anyway.
Life is really interesting, magical but definitely entertaining.