Have you ever just wondered why you are created on this earth? Like, are you living for a purpose or you are just something that came up out of the blue? Is it even valid to say that you are a reincarnation of someone who has lived before you? Are you a clone?
These questions sometimes come to my mind whenever I am opening a conversation with someone. Not that I don’t have any interesting topic to talk about, it’s just that, for me, it seems pretty cool to talk about these things especially when you’re bored. Why? It’s simple. These serious and deep stuffs make the best conversation because it can open up a broad topic that could make a simple chat, feel like an entire storytelling. You see, I always love to listen to people’s stories. Good or bad, plain or exciting, short or long, it doesn’t matter. For me, these stories are what make them alive.
Not a day really goes by that we won’t have anything to talk about to someone. It is because through talking, we are able to express ourselves—how we feel about something, what we want, or just our point of view. There’s freedom in talking and this medium of expressing oneself has become the most effective way of human interaction. However, it is through talking about unusual stuffs that we get to know a person better and realize that there’s more to life than mediocre things or even people. It is because, man as we are, there’s this peculiar weirdness in all of us that comes out when we least expect it. For example, when we decide to discuss about a certain topic which at first we don’t realize that we have in us. It could be our childish dream to have our own amusement park, our love for zombie and post-apocalyptic stories, our obsession about heaven, hell and purgatory, our fetish for feathery things, our disposable utensils collection and the list goes on.
Today, at this moment, what I really want to fuss about is my love-hate-relationship with my job (day job to be exact). However, as I am caught in this dilemma and some kind of “deep-stuffs” virus, I ended up literally talking about it on this post. Well, please excuse my currently unstable brain.
So, do you have anything to talk about? Why am I still typing? Argggghhh……
It’s not very pretty out there in the real world. But if we won’t take every chance we have to cope up and just live in the imaginary world that we used to, we lose our chance to be who we most wanted to be. Sometimes, it could be tough. You’ll face mishaps, challenges, and all that negative stuffs. But as long as you have the courage to try and wait, you’ll surely have the fruits of your success.
So, travel a lot, open up more conversations, pursue your passions, collect more memories and let someone know what you truly feel. Like they say, you only live once, so might as well, make the most out of it. When you finally know how to be happy, you finally know how to live.
Having too many thoughts isn’t really a bad thing. Sometimes, it allows you to feel every inch of feeling you ought to feel when you are worried, excited, sad, happy, afraid or just thrilled about a thing. Other times, it gives you a private time just going about yourself and somehow, realize that you are really not that useless or that at least, you make sense.
I’ve come to realize
I’ve not given enough
Always the second best
Or just to get by
I’ve never wanted to give my all
Guess I’m just scared to take a fall
Where do I go from here?
Is all I can ask myself
Was I a fool to believe?
That it’s a good escape
Right now maybe I have to wait
And hope maybe it’s not yet too late
The tip of the pen
is pointing nowhere.
Ideas are crumpled
like a piece of junk paper.
My mind’s empty,
Thoughts do not come in handy.
Is this what they call
a “Writer’s Block”?