Wishful Thinking

I lie here in my bed

Imagining our “could have beens”

Then it got me thinking

What I should have done to make you stay

Your memories are all over me now

The way you laugh, the way you hold my hand

Everything was all so clear to me

Except for the fact that you could never be here

I’m awake, but I dream about you

When I close my eyes, all I see is you

Maybe you’re a little overstaying

In my heart, you found your home

Everyday, I’m filled with wishful thinkings

That I could still be yours and that you’re mine

Someday, I’ll find you again

One day, you’ll come back

Almosts

I got close to you, (almost)
those small talks,
sweet exchange of words,
late night conversations..

You just need someone to talk to.

I had you, (almost)
you come to me when you’re bored,
we eat meals together,
and watch movies or series on free time..

You just enjoy my company.

I loved you, (almost)
your thoughts don’t leave my mind,
your voice lingers, your face is all I see,
my heart beats faster when we’re together.

I almost got close to you
I almost had you
I almost loved you
Too bad, almost doesn’t mean, “together”.

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Weekend

It’s that time of the week

when people get a good night sleep,

eat like there’s no tomorrow

and go wherever fun is.

It’s that time of the week

when family is the top priority,

spending quality time together

without any single hassle.

It’s that time of the week

to forget stress and be not busy,

when only the good things are observed

and bad vibes are put away.

It’s that time of the week

when you do the laundry and clean your closet,

decorate your room and change the mattress

then lay down in bed all day.

It’s that time of the week

to get a little lazy,

maybe a little bit more,

yes, it’s a lazy day.

 

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From Afar

At least once in your life, you’ll find someone whom you will like so much.

So much, that no matter how hopeless, you’ll keep on liking that person.

No matter how hard, you’ll always think of that person.

No matter how complicated, you’ll still hold on to your feelings towards that person.

No matter how pathetic, you’ll look forward to the day that you will finally be with that person.

You’ll remember that person’s face, smile, gestures and even the smallest details that no one else could ever notice.

From afar, you will always like that person…

but you will never do anything about it.

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Why Not?

Why not love?
If it’s love that inspires you
to pursue your dreams,
then, go on.
If it’s love that makes you
a better person,
love some more.
And if it’s love that makes you feel alive,
don’t spoil the moment
that you have the ability to love
and the chance to be loved back.

Enough

It’s not always bad to want more.
If we don’t have much,
we do want something more.
But if we have enough,
we should just be contented
and realize that whatever we have,
no matter how few or many,
they are just all that we deserve.
Remember, enough is different
from too much.

Remembering

People come and go,
but we never really get used to it.
Sometimes, life separates,
other times, it’s death that causes it.

The ones we care about,
the people we love so much,
some strangers we barely knew,
all of them will not stay when it’s due.

Yet, we have their memories,
good or bad, they’re a part of us.
These memories will linger
and will stay with us forever.

Yes, people come and go,
but we have to be strong to move on.
Though we are a lifetime away,
remembering their memories
is what will keep us going on.

It Will

Losing a loved one
is the hardest part
of having someone in your life.
It’s like your whole being
had been cut into two
and it will take a very long time
to bring it back.

Surely, it will.
Maybe not now,
maybe not tomorrow,
but it really will.
In God’s time.

I Write

I write not because I want to
but because I know I can.
I write not because I have nothing to do
but because it’s all I want to be doing.
I write not because I can’t speak
but because my words are better in writing.
I write not because I want to earn a living
but because it’s what I am living for.

Weak

I could use my strengths as a will to survive. But something inside me tells that I can’t and I shouldn’t. Nobody asked me if I do know myself but I guess that it’s just fair because I don’t know the answer either.

All I know is that I’m weak. And I want someone to take away that weakness.